a beginning

i have always been a writer. problem is, i never know where to start...

i guess a beginning. today is a beginning in a sense. a beginning in trying to know me. begin to be strong. well i started that yesterday. and a beginning on looking at life a little differently.

i know it sounds dumb but....life doesn't revolve around me. imagine that. that was a sad revelation but a true one that honestly we all know but really don't want to comprehend.

well. i am deciding to start this little writers journey in hopes to keep myself sane when there are hours on end spent in front of this computer job searching. i need to break it up or this teacher-wanna-be is gonna go nuts.

i am learning in this moment actually to let go and let god. i'm not stressing it. any of it. if its gonna happen then it is gonna happen. and that goes for just about everything in my life right now. so back to this beginning concept again....

i am going to begin to write my thoughts in this lovely blog that it really does not matter if anyone follows it. i will be writing here for a little mental release. i am beginning to take on this new let things happen as they will attitude. i am beginning to stop having to have control over EVERYTHING. it is so unaccomplishable (and yes i made that up for my own purposes). and i am just going to begin to be a free spirit in a way. come what may.

here goes...